talking bout love, it really hurts...

hmmm... harini, neem rase neem nak cakap something dat neem dah lame pendam dalam hati ni...

when i first know u, i can see that u r a good person, caring... dats why i like u... then i fall in love with u...i'm like u... hard to trust people... i keep on asking myself, do u really love me? action speaks louder than words... from ur act, i know u love me... but when u're talking with me, especially when we're quarreling, i sometimes wonder do u really love me? or u just need someone to feel the loneliness in ur heart...

u always said i'm free to talk with anyone, but when i'm chatting with friends, u said i'm curang to u... ok, i dont do it... then, i see u do it... what should i say?? i just keep quiet, i know u're chatting with friends, even though i'm jealous, i just keep it in heart... u always said u're a normal person, just normal boy, not a good person for me... just one thing, people wont love a person if they're not god enough for u rite? if i dont love u, i wont give my everything to u... n u know what everything did i give... u always say honest to ur loved ones... but i didnt c u honest with me... i want us change... n now what  i know is u dont even need me... u just need me when she cant be there for u... i tried to be the best for u, teman u all day... even though i'm tired, i tried to be there for u... care for u, hug u, kiss u... honestly, i truely love u from my heart, not just about nafsu, all dat.. yes, what we did before was sins... its my fault, but even in it, i keep thinking bout this... i want us change, be happy n good way, love in good way... dats why i made a decision i wanna end up my life with u... i wanna be urs in life... n i really wanna change... but u ignore me now...

so sad... b4 when she's busy, she ignored u, u said u love me, u care for me... but i can see it when she's back, u ignored me... u said u love both of us... but i think now i know who u love more... maybe i should be gone forever... i'm really hurt... b4, i tried my best to make u happy, but when she comes back, i know no matter how good am i to u, u wont look at me again... nevermind, i'm just a bitch, just a rubbish in everyones eye... i know it.. from the beginning... this heart aches so much, hurts so much... love... but not accepted.. i hope i dont have feelings...