i love u, from the deep of my heart... u always ask me why i love u... i just dont know what is the answer, but i feel safe, feels nice, hapy beng with u, when u were around... if i say i love u coz  i like to c ur smile, when u didnt smile at me, i still feeels this heart aching loving u... aching in a good way... i think u r my true love... i dont know why... i just love u da way u are... da way u suddenly realize an repent when something we're doing was wrong... being with u, makes my heart so happy makes me feels so nice... this feeling, i dont know how to describe it... after we had the war... i tried to forget u... but... everytime i closes my eyes, i c u... i hear ur voice in my mind... it really hurts me, the way i've realy hurt n broke ur heart... and everyday i'm trying to make u be with me again, make u happy with me again... i really2 want u... i really2 wann change, i wanna heal ur heart... please dnt go... please dont leave me... i promise i'l be a good girl... i promise... since da beginnng, i wanna help u, n help myself... i wanna help u in everything, i wanna be there in ur joys n sad... i really2 wanna be there.. i really2 wanna be urs... since da start i know i fall in love with u, my mind, my heart already said u were my mr rght, i like the way u get mad at me, dats how i know u needs my love, u needs my care... please dont hate me... i just cant help myself.. and please let me chance to understand u more, gets closer, kenal hati budi naz... please... i want to start a new life... with u.... i always feels hurt when i think about how i hurt u... and i'm trying my very best to be the best for u, change for us to be better... i just dont know how i can say i love u... but even i'm hurt by u... my heart keeps loving u more and more... i just dont want to loose u anymore... please... i truely love u naz...

talking bout love, it really hurts...

hmmm... harini, neem rase neem nak cakap something dat neem dah lame pendam dalam hati ni...

when i first know u, i can see that u r a good person, caring... dats why i like u... then i fall in love with u...i'm like u... hard to trust people... i keep on asking myself, do u really love me? action speaks louder than words... from ur act, i know u love me... but when u're talking with me, especially when we're quarreling, i sometimes wonder do u really love me? or u just need someone to feel the loneliness in ur heart...

u always said i'm free to talk with anyone, but when i'm chatting with friends, u said i'm curang to u... ok, i dont do it... then, i see u do it... what should i say?? i just keep quiet, i know u're chatting with friends, even though i'm jealous, i just keep it in heart... u always said u're a normal person, just normal boy, not a good person for me... just one thing, people wont love a person if they're not god enough for u rite? if i dont love u, i wont give my everything to u... n u know what everything did i give... u always say honest to ur loved ones... but i didnt c u honest with me... i want us change... n now what  i know is u dont even need me... u just need me when she cant be there for u... i tried to be the best for u, teman u all day... even though i'm tired, i tried to be there for u... care for u, hug u, kiss u... honestly, i truely love u from my heart, not just about nafsu, all dat.. yes, what we did before was sins... its my fault, but even in it, i keep thinking bout this... i want us change, be happy n good way, love in good way... dats why i made a decision i wanna end up my life with u... i wanna be urs in life... n i really wanna change... but u ignore me now...

so sad... b4 when she's busy, she ignored u, u said u love me, u care for me... but i can see it when she's back, u ignored me... u said u love both of us... but i think now i know who u love more... maybe i should be gone forever... i'm really hurt... b4, i tried my best to make u happy, but when she comes back, i know no matter how good am i to u, u wont look at me again... nevermind, i'm just a bitch, just a rubbish in everyones eye... i know it.. from the beginning... this heart aches so much, hurts so much... love... but not accepted.. i hope i dont have feelings...

the truth of me...

harini... neem x pasti neem dah wat benda yang betul ataw salah... antara sebab neem susah nak honest dengan kamu ialah kamu akan marah neem for the things yg neem gtaw... itula sebabnye neem susah nak honest, doesnt mean neem nak tipu kamu... neem x tipu... neem cume x dapat nak bagitau everything, i dont want u to feels shocked... coz neem memang perempuan yang jahat... 

ape yang neem bagitau kamu tadi tu la da truth, kalau kamu perasan, since after exam kamu lagi neem nampak resah, dat day we spend 3 days together, neem byk diam, resah, kerana neem serba salah, should i tell u that or x... neem nak bagitau, but takut kamu x dapat terima... 

then tadi, neem ajak kamu makan same2 coz neem nak spend time with u, dats why neem murung arini, coz neem da decide nak bagitau, neem decide nak bgtau time jumpa tadi, but neem x mampu... neem call tadi, bgtau... n mungkin itu akan jadi kali terakhir neem bercakap dengan kamu... neem harap kamu dapat faham situasi neem macamana... neem x nak tipu diri neem lagi, dan neem nak kamu tau diri neem macamana..  tell u bout  it... neem lakukan kerana terpaksa, betul2 terdesak dan buntu ketika itu... dan neem benar2 dah insaf... tapi selepas neem beritahu, neem rase diri neem teruk sgt2... neem rase diri ni hina sangat2... diri ni sgt2 x gune... sgt2 jijik, kotor dengan diri sendiri... maafkan neem..


neem sayangkan kamu sangat2... dan sebab itulah neem kenalkan kamu dengan ibubapa neem, neem berharap dapat bersama kamu sehngga ke anak cucu... kerana neem rasa kamu lah lelaki yg dapat membimbing neem... kamulah lelaki yang terbaik buat neem... neem x pernah tipu bile neem belai kamu, bile neem manjakan kamu, bile neem cakap neem sayangkan kamu, neem x pernah tipu semua itu... dan neem sgt2 menghargai kamu... neem sangat2 menghargai diri kamu, ur love, everything from u...  maafkan neem kerana baru beritahu hal ini tadi.. kerana neem x mampu nak tahan lama2 lagi... neem mahu berterus terang secepat mungkin... neem mahu kamu juga jujur dengan neem... maafkan neem kerana telah sakiti hati kamu...



neem takut kamu x dapat terima neem setelah tahu betapa jijiknya diri ini.. neem pernah cakap dengan kamu dulu, when talking bout my pasts, i need time to collect sstrength to tell... if x, ini la yang jadinya... i cant accept myself anymore... neem pernah cakap dengan kamu dulu... if satu hari nee terpaksa lukakan hati kamu, neem mintak maaf, neem x sengaja nak lukakan kamu, tapi neem perlu berterus terang, kerana neem x nak kita berdua merana di kemudian hari... sekarang neem dah jujur mengenai semuanya... jadi neem harap kamu dapat fahami apa yang neem rasa sekarang... neem harap kamu faham keadaaan neem macamana sekarang... dan berilah neem peluang... neem berjanji neem x kan ulangi semua ini lagi...

neem tahu kamu juga sangat menyayangi neem, kerana kamu sanggup datang jauh2 utk berjumpa dengan neem, kerana kamu sanggup berkorban banyak benda untuk neem... neem tahu semua itu dari awal,, x perlu kamu beritahu pun neem dah tahu... terima kasih sayang... neem harap hubungan kita dapat diperbaiki dan kekal lama.... buat masa ni, x terucap rasa terima kasih itu... segalanya telah neem beritahu tadi semasa berjumpa dan didalam telefon...